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just one night.
i promise i will.
’til this beleaguered
heart leaves me.
just one kiss.
i know i’ll till.
it’s just your face
so close to mine
makes contradiction
easy to convention.
i can’t move.
just one anchor.
so i know i have
shore. a reach
for that sentiment
of yours.
were we predictable?
a clinical dream?
a farce…a meme?
a taste like that mint
of contemporary seeming?
i would rather
one night.
at a time.
a scheduled ritual
rather than timed
schedule. that is me.
i am sorry.
why would you even care?
hazard that hope
and we both die.
seize the fear
and we both lie.
inverted we live.
diverted we strive.
am i too naive
to believe?
have we come to
the bend?
a crux in our
eagerness to spend.
so i see you
and you fault me.
i still love
the day that i
i knew i loved you.
a moment that keeps
me still.

she (random cl post) wrote:

I don’t know why I’m posting this, but here goes.
Life has me jaded, intellects don’t interest me, so what if you read philosophy and know all about the world’s history? It never made me happier knowing these things about war and dead ideologies that are now replaced by materialism and Hollywood like politics. Good looks on a man, they fade, and don’t I know this too as a woman, it only attracted attention and praise of the temporary and phonies. Our souls, well I really don’t believe I have one or ever did, and that maybe is because i haven’t seen fire in anyone else’s including mine in a very long time.
Dating, traveling, relationships, endless office jobs, school, meetings, relapsing, getting back to square one again, circles of friends fading till no one is left, this is life. And it’s a party of one now, no matter what they say, who is there, it’s only me. Does anyone else feel this? Whats left when it seems like we’ve experienced all there is to?
“I’ve seen it all I’ve seen the willow leaves dancing in the breeze.. Have you seen China? Have you seen the Great Wall? A ll walls are great if the roof doesn’t fall… And the man you will marry the home you will share, to be honest …” Bjork and Tom York tiny dancer

i wrote:

I don’t know why either. Why I browse Craig’s short list. Why the long sighs exhibited as I try to make sense of why.

Don’t be jaded. Don’t be fooled. You’re only 27 and I’m an old soul. I’ve seen mine and vanity makes me grow cold – preserved like an icy stalagmite in these caves of our times.

Don’t like philosophy? Don’t like history? Not idealistic in today’s designed society? *laugh* is your subtle disdain for these contemporary days as stale as mine?

Looks fade and shallow convictions delay what we should always do: walk the straightest line to our due. That is the crux. When you and I connect as nothing else does.

Yeah, I’ve seen China. Not the great wall. That’s no great wonder to me. It is the feeling that a new place gives to my soul that makes wonderment of it all. And then I know I have yet to see it all. In thrall of this, I look forward to the next day sculpted by my thoughts – shaped by my actions.

Don’t be jaded….. you have much to live for. Amor.

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those times in taipei.
surreal. so fey.
your lips. like frozen anarchy.
on mine. like colliding waves
on those formosan seas.
you dislike my ways.
my style that aggravates
your taste.
so fey.
you loved me. i know.
i love you so.
i must let you go.
was there any other way?
you misled me.
i fooled myself.
those ringing whispers
of doubt that will not
lower those walls
ringed round my folly.
what else?
those simple walks
through the night market.
without words we
communed.
with much haste we
assumed.
as much with me
as with you.
as though the world,
caked with powder,
was our pie.
as if the truth,
never farther,
was our lie.
making love to you
was my undoing.
now always i will
seek the same
in another.
what the body in
passion consummates
may not match the tides
of what the soul
may snatch when
joining, as one,
we mate.
i always said you
were my match.
in so many ways
that simplicity
will not forgive.
now we are no more.
as polar strands
unheeding of the other.
cliffs turned to
a horizon neither sees
in self imposed duplicity.
what else?
those wet summer nights
in each’s embrace.
engaging your breathing
to mine with a lover’s
eager pace.
your face to mine
without the pretension
of lace. I miss you.
I miss you so.
I must let you go.
you do not love me.
now i know.
do know as i said before.
with my back to you
and seeking the front door.
a portal that
evinces never more.
i do not regret.
one moment.
with you.

she (random cl post) wrote:

(I can’t live without you)

I can’t live without you.
I’ll die, crumble into ash,
waste away to nothing, because my fire is gone,
because only you can light it, my dark prince.

But you stay forever in the shadows eluding me,
teasing me, turning me on,
making me ache with the want of you,
then like a butterfly flit away from my grasp.

Just once I’d like to see you solid, whole.
I’d like you to hold me, and let the world melt with us

i wrote:
i only walk these shoes
for a glimpse of you
in the hanging shades of
this life.

one moment where i
may, if i may,
see some destination.
some harbor
far from my origination.
just once i’d like to see
you see me.
for what i am.
unbroken but seeking
to be whole.
then hold me as i you.
i only walk these shoes

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walking i came across a low stone hedge.
placing my hand on the topmost stone, I felt a tinge.
an invitation, ruly and warm, for my rest to pledge.
hinged like second nature, rock marbled at the fringe
i sat.

where are you?
i have walked a score of time for your shores
and found you only to forfeit that
short time meant to be forever.
never.
i will walk another score.
another life.
without that which we strive.
with that which we
promised yesterday.
how can i live today?

getting up, i looked to the original path.
a route of mimicry that held no
pioneering credit for me.
a lane traversed by many
more sad than i.
truly the road less traveled
and often despised
by those claiming wisdom
in unwarranted haste.
it is the setting sun that
spurs my travel.

where are you?
i have walked a score of time
to see your smile and
when i did i lost the
will to smile back.
it is because the
morning sun brings
the possibility
of when i will at last.

If only for a moment
That I would love you
More than my life itself
Then that would be
A moment to live
As if love were my life.

If only for a spell
That you would gaze
Upon me as though
enraptured by the
Moment I cast my
Gaze in thrall to yours

These skies of Taipei
In diurnal contradiction
To the falling tides,
crestfallen and heavy,
On the morning
shores of my soul.
I do not want to go.
Those pastures that
Await me back home.
I do not want to go.
To that which is
familiar and known.
I do not want to go.
To my old life
Content but alone.
Rather would I be
In your arms on
This isle Formosa.
That this moment from
The center sever.
That this spell bind
This world ever.
That once bound
Is immutable as stone.
If only for a moment.